“I was fresh out of a divorce, scared, depressed and I knew that there had to be more to life.”
I remember waking up in a “spiritual sense” over 6 years ago. I was fresh out of a divorce, scared, depressed and I knew that there had to be more to life. You see I was raised by a hard working family. I had accepted that life was hard and you must keep your head down and continue to persevere if you wanted to “make it.”
I prided myself on being able to pound a square peg in a round hole. If I was not working hard or struggling in some way, I believed that I was not living up to my potential. It was during this time I started to realize that I was allowing my perceived outside accomplishments determine how I defined myself. I was also allowing my perception of how others viewed me as a gauge for self love.
The pressure and expectations that I put on myself regarding parenting, career, body image and relationships were extraordinary.
As a result I smothered my spark for life, the spark that all souls are born with, the spark that I was born with. My life was not fulfilling anymore, I was scared, sad and overwhelmed.
In my twenties I had experienced a debilitating period of anxiety and depression. I was prescribed medication and underwent psychotherapy but I still remember trying to repair external factors as a means of relief. It took until my mid 30s for me to realize that putting energy toward changing external elements of my life really didn’t change how I felt about myself.
I began to understand that in order to be happy I needed to address my pain at a soul level and that started with me acknowledging that I had Destructive Core Beliefs. I knew it was time to take the opportunity to reinvent myself at a soul level.
Of course, I did not know where to begin. I wanted to make these changes as quickly as possible so that I could get on with my life. As I am writing these words I am laughing out loud. My need for control was off the charts and I had no idea what this wonderfully perfect journey would bring.
Through this process, I sought therapy, attended support groups, mediated, saw spiritual healers, read self-help books, talked with my friends ad nauseam, changed careers, changed relationships, cried and prayed. I opened my heart, mind and soul to acknowledge my Destructive Core Beliefs. DCBs such as I am not worthy or smart enough. I began to understand that my happiness was mine to own so I launched my healing at a soul level.
Living from a soul level provides us the map for our own perfect path . There is a reason that you are reading this page right now and that you are beginning to understand that you are worthy of all the happiness you desire.
Allow me to share my experience with you and support you in your journey. You should know that your true happiness is at your fingertips.